Holes and quick sand

Make the pain go away. Make the want vanish from my mind. Make the hurt disappear. Make the savages in my subconscious mind delete the dirty thoughts. I want them gone. All of them.. The hole I'm digging keeps getting bigger and bigger. I feel like I could do something about it yet instead I'm siting in the bottom watching the dirt fill in. After I look down from staring at the top all that time I realize I'm sinking in quick sand also. Sinking and sinking further into my own muck... That's how I feel. Now how do I escape?